I feel weird .. I would like to change something in my life, I would be so happy as it once was, with a group of friends, laughing, carefree and fond of fun. Why I had to mutate in such a recluse up? It is true that I have not been this much again very sociable, and yet somehow I gave socialize. Vex on itself, that I became so quiet and peaceful, with no life ..
I would like to go out, go wild, dance-I miss it. Maybe someday I can get rid of the cage that surrounds me, although perhaps it is too late ..
long time since I was writing, I did not talk about. I did at that time a lot of stupid things .. A few weeks ago the first time since years reached for a razor blade .. Relieved. I felt so confused in my mind, body and mind refuse to obey. I faked it before all that I am happy, and this time it was getting worse. Tension which accompanied me through all these the months went by when I saw the first drops of blood .. their blood. This meeting, with the long forgotten "friend", has had the desired effect of stress gone somewhere very far away, in my head ceased mind ', I felt a pleasant state of blissful and wonderful throbbing with the newly developed cutting .. Euphoria.
Such an effect of relief and happiness not held up too long .. After some time, came to me as very disappointed, not only P. (even though he as you have seen me wearing połapał right away), but myself because I promised myself that after all no more .. Someone probably
say that I'm insane .. Hmm will have the absolute right and for that reason I do not let ANYONE get close (well, maybe except one very important person: p). Do you reach for again, after a razor blade? I do not know, but I will do everything to combat it. Just a question .. Do not lose again?
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